“It was because of Ace.”, he explained with a sad voice.
“W-What?” I didn’t really realize what he has said. I just starred stunned at him and tried to understand.
“I said I acted so different because of Ace. Because of his death…” He said it quietly but now I understood everything. So I looked into his face and was almost shocked.
I mean I’ve saw him seriously sometimes and then he has seemed so different. But now- it looked like all his happiness was gone. Like he could never smile again. Smile his wonderful smile.
“Hey Luffy? Is everything okay?”, I asked really worriedly and looked straight into his eyes. I saw that he tried to fake a smile. “Yes. I-I mean, that was two years ago…”
I didn’t believe him one word. And then suddenly I understood all.
He missed his brother so damn hard that it hurts. I knew this feeling. When my mother had died it thought the horrible pain would kill me.
I was sure he felt exactly the same at this moment.
So I didn’t think long. I grabbed his arms and pulled him close to me. Then I embraced him and laid my head on his chest.
After some minutes I felt his arms pressing me closer to him and his head on mine. And so we stood there for a very long time.
I didn’t know how long but then I he released me and looked into my eyes. I looked back.
“I’m sorry that I hadn’t told you. Now I know this would have been the best…”, he murmured.
“It’s okay. I know this feeling. It’s horrible. And you think it would kill you, right?” I asked and try to smile a bit. But I was too sad at this moment. His hurt made me sad…
“Yes. Since I realized that Ace isn’t here anymore…Since I realized that he had broken his promise...”
“He…he promised me n-never to d-die.”, he stumbled and I thought I saw tears in his eyes. “But this ass did. He broke his promise and let me alone!” His voice was really loud now and he really started to cry. Okay, not so much but more than I ever saw.
“Luffy-“ I couldn’t endured seeing him like that. So terrible sad! So I pulled him in a hug again and whispered with a soft voice: “Shh… Everything is alright. You aren’t alone. I’m here and all your friends, too. Maybe Ace isn’t really here anymore but I he isn’t dead. A person will only die if you forget him. And I’m sure you will never to that.”